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Most people who know me know that I have been trying to quit smoking for quite some time. I’m a light smoker; about 1-5 cigarettes a day, roughly 4-5 times a week. That’s not a lot, but it’s enough to put me at risk for heart disease, lung disease, mouth disease….well, you get the point.

I started smoking when I was 14. If I could go back and give my 14-year-old self a hard kick in the ass I most certainly would. There were a few times during my teens and 20s that I quit for months at a time, but I always seem to come back to it. I don’t need anyone to tell me how stupid that is…I am perfectly aware.

I am convinced that smoking is why I’ve been sick so often this winter. I also know that when I’m smoking, it is harder for me to exercise…because my lungs just don’t wanna. I also know that you really can’t quit smoking until you are ready – and for the past week or so I’ve been thinking that I just might be ready to try again. So when I felt myself getting sick on Thursday night I thought “Hey, this is gonna suck…but now is as good a time as any to quit!”

I didn’t smoke on Friday, Saturday or Sunday. There was a situation on Monday that was extremely upsetting and I ended up having 4 cigarettes before I decided that it really wasn’t helping. Then there were 2 puffs yesterday before I decided that I really, really didn’t want it. And that was that. I had an almost full pack of cigarettes, and I just didn’t want any – which is why I think I’m ready to quit.

Of course, I had awesome plans to hit the gym at school before class this morning…until I woke up with bad chest pain and difficulty breathing. Coincidence? Well, probably more related to being sick for the past 5 days than anything else, but still.

So when I brave the blizzard outside to go to the walk-in today, it might be a good time to discuss some stop-smoking strategies as well.

Is there a point to this post? No. But I’m going to be super embarrassed if I put this out there and then don’t quit….so there you go.


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